OMG I made it to finals! I was ecstatic when I learned that I had made it to the final round of the audition process! In addition to working at my regular job, I had to attend mandatory rehearsals in the evenings to prepare for the final audition which was going to showcase the 66 finalists in a pageant-like format.

Sitting through two hours of traffic after an already long day at work was tough. Not to mention, I needed to be camera-ready for every rehearsal. Mustering up the energy to get through each rehearsal was not easy, but regardless of my exhaustion, I knew that I was moving closer and closer to achieving my dream, so I made sure to enjoy every moment and do my very best.

Fast-forward to the main event, I was feeling excited yet calm. Weeks of preparation and hard work were all for this one night, and I was ready to shine! I made sure to really enjoy the process and focus on being present in the moment, because I knew that I was given an amazing opportunity that many others were not awarded. To dance among 65 talented ladies was truly a blessing, and I wanted to soak up the whole experience.

We went from the on-stage question, to swimwear, then to dancing, and before I knew it, the moment for announcing the team had arrived. While holding the hand of the dancer standing next to us, we stood in a circle, anxiously waiting to find out who had made the team. Before entering this phase of the night, I brought myself to a place of gratitude. I knew that I had given every bit of myself to this audition, and I reminded myself that no matter the outcome, I was going to remain grateful and content.

Name after name after name was announced… but none was mine. As the circle of ladies dwindled, I reminded myself that whatever the outcome, I was going to be understanding and accepting. Then the final name was called, …and it was not mine. That moment, I felt a strong sense of disappointment — not only in myself, but in the eyes of the remaining finalists. But I quickly shifted my focus, and reminded myself that I should be grateful.

Someone wise told me that “Most successful people fail many, many times before achieving success.” I look up to this person, and I think it’s something that we can all apply to our journeys. Sometimes things don’t go the way we hope, we might not lose the pounds we had hoped to shed within a certain time frame, or we might have veered off the healthy eating path for a few days, but the important thing is to try your best, and be patient.

I was given and incredible opportunity, and though the outcome was not what I had hoped for, it was still an amazing experience, and I would do it all over again in a heartbeat.

until next time <3